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Here’s a change log of my consciousness. Starting in December 2021, I’ve been capturing my ideas through the day, and then publishing them to my site the next morning. I’ve written about the benefits, its origins, and a 2-year reflection. Here are the log archives (WIP).

May 8th, 2025

8:30 AM — Weird glitch: In January, February, and April of this year, I published 155 logs in each month.

May 7th, 2025

08:27 PM – Substack has the opportunity to do something fundamentally new with social media—which is to break out of engagement-based feeds. It’s like a megalopolis of good prose; and so a SM post could be a semantic search query that scans notes and essays (that have been sliced into paragraph arrays for more precise embeddings). A note, then, isn’t a scheme to go viral, but a way to actually surface inspiration and people from the network. What’s funny is that Substack search sucks and so does Notes.

11:51 AM – Las Vegas is a city with no geographical, historical, social, or economic constraints.

11:46 AM – Lidlicker’s model of communication is about synchronizing internal cognitive models. When writers talk about “expression,” that’s an act of making your interiority legible. A valid and real thing to do. Communication, though, is the additional step of doing some work to understand the cognitive models of others. Through feedback, you build a theory on how translations are succeeding or failing.

Social media notes are so weird because you’re blind to the models of others. I guess you figure out after the fact. But cancel culture might come down to a communication breakdown from rapidly colliding subgroups (TBC)….

11:26 AM – Dead malls & simulation theory

11:04 AM – Today we’re FRYING Bulbasaur (AI video, NSFL)

08:56 AM – Creativity is a mindset;
Composition is a language.
(The language of art).

01:09 AM – New idea for an “Architecture of Everything” newsletter series, where I present my favorite problems (Feynman style) as a daily email, and prompt you to share your thoughts. It’s a way to crowd source answers to the questions I care about most:

The architecture of death, consciousness, space, history, writing, government, video games, technology, music, religion, news, social media, mind, software.

Some of the latest:

Is the act of dying a time-dilation odyssey, where 3 minutes feels like a 30,000 years afterlife?
If I capture my consciousness in 10 million words of logs and essays, could that enable an AI textual replica to evolve and engage with the world 500 years beyond my death?
Can we resurrect Christianity by putting psychedelics back in the holy wine?
What will be the psychic and cultural effects when our species understands "spatial relativity," that the Big Bang emerged from a black hole in a parent universe?
If cycles emerge form order, can we predict the future based on historical patterns?
If there is a universal language of patterns beneath all essays, can we build an AI to give world-class feedback and make it more approachable to become a master at writing?
Were psilocybin mushrooms a linguistic mutagen that accelerated the evolution of human consciousness?
Could we restructure the thesaurus to 3x the vocabulary of the average person?
Might blockchain-based governance be the civic breakthrough required for a species not to exterminate itself?
What text-based video game formats are undiscovered?
What are the societal effects when AR/VR is mature enough to simulate teleportation, and how can we design the metaverse to promote human flourishing?
How can popular music change the values system of a
culture?
What systems of attention, language, and action lead to a transcendent consciousness?
Can we use AI to filter through millions of comments on breaking news, structuring each event as a range of unique interpretations?
How might a new social media algorithm trigger a Renaissance in connection, self-expression, and agency?

(Image getting one of these per day with 300-500 words of context).

May 6th, 2025

10:46 PM – I need to start deconstructing the feedback that I give. I’ve been too indexed on how to score and analyze. That’s like a “decoding” process, where delivering suggestions to a writer is an “encoding” process. I know how to decode now, generally, but I need to formalize how to properly encode and then connect the two.

08:50 PM – Fear is an emergent design property that can become transparent when you embody the transience of space-time relativity. I realized this in Tudor Town (there are some walking distance tudors). It reminded me of my architecture school building, and somehow the realization that I’m the same being from 15 years ago reduced my somatic anxiety; it’s like I realized that I’m not immersed in fear, but fear is an abstract output from misaligned inputs. It’s all I/O. I have the agency to redesign my system, starting in this very moment.

08:42 PM – I think I have green-coat syndrome (an anxiety around a low-dose placebo weed gummy that stems from weed prohibition). This comes from old fear mongering (DARE/ “all drugs will kill you”), and also bad memories of weed overdoses (10-100x) that only occurred because weed was illegal and the only edible sources were from homemade unmeasured brownies. (Also, a remarkable case for weed is that a 100x overdose will not send you to the hospital, compared to alcohol, where 4x a reasonable dose could kill you).

08:39 PM – On drugs, lore, and somatic anxiety.

08:15 PM – Did I finally fix my posture? I’m usually too focused to notice, but now I’m over-sensitive to slight discomfort.

08:05 PM – 1 mg at 8:05. Nerves and excitement. Suddenly I feel a +1 day post-workout burn. Every little thing is being interpreted: my chest, neck, and stomach. 8:10, my tongue feels funny and I research terpenes using ChatGPT. Maybe I’m just over sensitive because I’ve had a cereal day and now I’m suddenly attuned to my body.

05:14 PM – You are what you eat (AI video, #NSFL)

02:28 PM – DIA - the Browser Company’s second browser (will I use this instead of Ark? Or both together?)

May 5th, 2025

08:11 PM – The biggest way to improve my Essay Architecture system is to improve the granularity of my control sets by reading within my own AI sandbox. Right now, I read analog. There’s something soothing in that. I scribble in the margins, and then on a 2nd read, I give an overall score per pattern. This is a pretty lossy way to do this. Also a per-pattern score (1-5) isn’t granular enough to capture WHICH part of the essay to apply suggestions too. I see a new frontier; it’s intimidating, but it’s the right direction.

08:09 PM – What does one do when they catch their dentist in a web of lies? It is tempting to play detective, but I also just want my cleanings.

09:42 AM – I wonder if there’s value in kids having analog representations of media (DVDs, CDs, tapes, cassettes). Is there something to having and managing a library of things? Does it activate your spatial memory? Something is lost when files are flattened in a screen.

May 4th, 2025

10:26 AM – An Erowid vault of all experiences that mention “Grateful” and “Dead”

10:04 AM – After the Grateful Dead residency, the next band at the sphere is the Backstreet Boys.

10:02 AM – Jerry Garcia, The Grateful Dead, and the Ritual Sacrifice of Celebrities

08:30 AM – I had multiple, connected dreams about the show last night. First point is that Jerry is back and no one cares. Set 1 is only 3 songs that no one has ever heard, and the visuals are effectively a Windows screensaver (just black with a dim purple swirl). They cut it short for an intermission. You guys leave, thinking it resumes the next morning, but I stay and see set 2 which is also only 10 minutes. The band walks through the crowd to exit. I shake their hands and John Mayer tells me “good job.” We realize the Sphere broke and are expecting a refund.

(As they were approaching I was trying to think of something to say or ask them, but all I could come up with was ‘good job’ for all 4 of them, and then John repeated it back to me, almost annoyed at how careless my remark was. For context, we were somehow in a hallway at that point, and we could have totally small talked for 60 seconds.)

May 3rd, 2025

07:57 AM – What would an essay on Astoria be about?

May 2nd, 2025

06:17 PM – Walking through midtown, I got the idea for a short story called “Sky Jail” or maybe “66 Park.” A billionaire buys the top-story penthouse of a mega-luxury tower, and turns it into a reality show social experiment. You sign a contract, and are forced to stay up there for a whole month. You can’t go down. It’s effectively prison, except it’s luxury beyond your imagination, and it’s all live-streamed. There could be a science fiction element, where drugs/food/pleasure/knowledge/technology are all combined to create an experience that is so beyond what someone has ever experienced, that they get depressed at the thought of going back down the tower, down the elevator to return to the real world. Every contestant decides to jump off the balcony, ending life “on high” (in literal/metaphor heaven—but it’s more like hell really). The twist is that a contestant goes up there, outsmarts the billionaire, and gets him to jump. It’s a modern version of the Faustian Bargain fable, but with modern social dynamics and supernatural magic replaced with technology.

02:41 PM – I am skeptical of dentists, but maybe that stems from a teeth paranoia? I just found myself questioning all these little things: are 5 separate people really needed for a cleaning? It’s “most likely” covered? Why does this need to happen over 2 sessions? Because I’m not an educated periodontist, they can show me any scan and say anything and I just have to trust them. They say “for my health” but are they operating under wicked incentives? I broke up with my last dentist because I heard rumors that they were financially hurting and then when I saw them they were insistent on me getting braces (for my health).

01:04 PM – Here’s the whole fretboard, highlighting octaves & all 5 CAGED shapes (image). I feel like when the root chord is on the E or A string (highlighted in Green), I’m pretty oriented to the shape that’s left or right of it.

So basically my fretboard is cut in half, it’s harder to navigate from the G/E shape to the D/C/A shape, so I’m trying to understand and memorize this bit in the middle to connect the two.

I know the shape, but I don’t think I internalized it yet. Like if I were playing this D-shape in the key of G (I) and you switch to C (IV), not sure if I’d intuitively know that I can pivot down here (this is called chord-tone targeting). I think my problem is that I memorize scale shapes (from one direction or root) & chords (also a shape), which then is an excuse to not study how each node in a shape is part of the scale.

09:17 AM – “I look in the mirror and I can’t tell where I being and end” (in response to my wife saying I can’t where a navy shirt with black pants).

May 1st, 2025

11:51 PM – In the decade before pot was legalized in New York, if you wanted edibles, it came in the form of a homemade brownie, and it’s unbelievable to think the dosages of those might have been 100-300 mg per brownie. For context, the legal limit now is 5-10 mg per gummy. Here’s what GPT has to say on the level required for edibles to turn psychedelic:

“Edibles become distinctly psychedelic—with altered time perception, visual distortions, auditory hallucinations, ego dissolution, and intense introspection—typically around 50–100mg of THC, especially for those with low tolerance. For some sensitive users, 30–50mg can already induce quasi-psychedelic effects. Beyond 150–200mg, even experienced users can experience full-on tripping: melting visuals, looping thoughts, loss of body awareness, and encounters with archetypal or “divine” mental imagery.

11:01 PM – (from Reddit)

“This is what happens when you fence off a private area and brand it as shakedown. It’s lame and I won’t be doing it lol…”

“The sphere run is Disney Dead”

07:02 PM – Only things a patient person would do:

IMMERSION: Listen to an album in full with complete attention, eyes closed, focus on instruments.
LOOPING: Read an essay twice
STILLNESS: Close your eyes and count to 32 very slowly.
DETAIL: Write your thoughts by hand
RUDIMENTARY: Practice scales on a guitar
DISTRACTION PROOF: Turn your phone on mute
DISCIPLINE: Plant survive
UNCERTAINTY: Doing a puzzle
PERCEPTIVE: Walk through your town, city, preserve with an empty mind and note your observations
SEQUENCE: Cook a whole meal, multi-step process.
STAMINA: Intense 3-hour conversation.
FLUENCY: Learn a new language

06:58 PM – Can I make the case for writing as fundamental to the liberation of consciousness? It’s not about becoming known in the literary world, or to advance your career. It is more fundamental than that. Writing is a way to edit the source code of your mind, to rewire your perceptions.

It’s even a tool to change the world around you. Religions, governments, and company define society through prose, code, and law. There’s always been an asymmetry; the writing was done by a small cabal. What happens when anyone can make software? What about a religion that encourages writing for self-knowledge? What about a liquid democracy that let’s citizens shape policy through essays?

03:35 PM – Taste is your inherited, trained sense of what is good/bad—your accumulated muscle memory from all past judgments.

02:44 PM – If the average American has 3 friends, and they have a “demand” for 15 friends, the solution should NOT be to give them 12 customized AI friends that serve you ads.

12:31 PM – “Editing is not just hard, it’s stupid!” (On how we invent philosophies to rationalize and justify how we feel—instead of feeling defeated by a draft, we’d rather tear down the value of editing).

12:24 PM – A Frankenstein chapter (stitched together fragments from other chapters)

11:32 AM – The 2027 and 2028 eclipses are happening in August, so maybe I use that as a deadline to publish my 2024 eclipse essay in August of 2025.

09:19 AM – NOMIC Atlas for visualizing semantic clouds (ex: Future Fossils)

Essay Architecture